Hi, my name is Josie Crumin. I don't like where I work but that's mostly because I don't like where I am in life. Where I am in life is still a question I ask myself daily. I've been having some odd occurrences as of late. I don't know what I expect from being here but I'm hoping maybe I'm not as crazy as people make me out to be.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Time spent

Joshua and I have been hanging out. He doesn't talk about Shady much, really private guy. He helps me with training since she can't. I didn't think he knew anything about fighting cause he kind of looks like a super tall nerd. Proved me wrong though. Joshua said he used to spar Shady a lot growing up, he didn't know much aside from watching her and that he never had the time to learn.

I like Joshua, he's a very private guy but it's not the sneaky kinda private where you're wondering if he's hiding stuff. He's really honest, kinda shy too.

Shady and him fight like siblings. They don't talk much to each other, it's a lot of body language, gestures, and wordplay. I keep asking him what he's talking about and he shrugs. Only thing he's ever said about it is it's a mix of stuff they made up and cultural body language. Shady favors Italian swears in her body language, I can at least now tell when she's telling me to fuck off, lol.

Brood still is shifty with me, he talks to Joshua a lot though. I don't think Shady is happy about it but doesn't say anything otherwise. She orders the MASC guys around a lot, Brood and her get into fights over who is in control. The MASC soldiers get confused. Things are really confusing here, actually. xD

On another note: Mister Creevey has been filling my inbox up with emails. I'm kinda freaked out over his last post. Shady said she'd keep me safe even with his threat and all. Brood doesn't seem happy having more possible trouble on his hands. I can't really say anything, I kinda feel bad just hiding out here but at the same time I don't have anywhere else to go. Shady has been fighting to keep me around when the MASC guys get shifty on hearing about Mister Creevey's emails.

Like today:

Shady: "Sending her out there is a death sentence! We have an armed fort here, out there is just miles and miles of hungry predators."

Brood: "We have plenty of predators bothering us as well, Shady. Mister Creevey is a high risk as it is and we haven't encountered him yet."

Shady: "Are you suggesting she just ups and leaves?"

Brood: "I'm considering that might have to be done."

Shady: "If you kick her out of here I'm going with her until I'm sure she's safe. You're here to assist, let me repeat that... ASSIST. Do you under-fucking-stand me? You will not throw out members unless I clear it first. Look at her, she's pathetic. No offense, Josie."

Me: "None taken, I know it."

Shady: "See, even she recognizes she'd get eaten out there quickly. If Mister Creevey is coming than we are going to be a force to reckon with. You wanted to be here and eliminate threats, so get to it when the threat comes."

I'm kinda surprised after the car ride and stuff. Joshua and her are defending me. It kinda makes me feel relieved but with Mister Creevey's emails I'm kinda just feeling worried. He's really coming here, Shady has kept quiet on it I see but we both know it.

At least no other threats have come around here. With DeMii and Lullaby I was worried on that Thuggee thing. Shady alone has theAdvocate, who can come and go through the wards somehow, and then Thy Executor and his people, and Road Runner. These people have a lot of crazy people after them and I really don't want to get involved with any of them. Gallows, Graves, and Mister Creevey are enough. ><

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Catching up

Fright Night was scary crazy. A lot of it is a blur from the adrenaline rush, crossing through all those different rooms was insane. How someone thinks up all those things is beyond me. Gallows kept using me as a shield to test out where the Advocate's traps here and then disarm them. Shady came around and saved me which led to a really heated conversation. I'm just thankful that there was someone that cared about my health. We got split up shortly after though in a mirror room.

I found Ferus in there and followed him around. Call me crazy, it was awesome to watch him tear through the rooms. It also brought me to the main room too. I clung to Shady's side, she kind of just watched everyone quietly or stared at me. Gallows was bothering Dia and dancing with her. Everyone else kind of just sat around until Advocate got down to business. Gallows cut me up pretty badly and Shady was trying to help. I don't really remember much after that, was kind of in and out of it. I think she was talking to someone and then I was outside being slapped awake.

Ferus and Shady exchanged looks and I saw Dia slumped near her car. Shady decided the three of us needed to visit the hospital and took us. We all shared a room and Shady slept in a chair or on the windowsill over the few days we were there. When we were good to go we went to Dia's and found Gallows and Graves waiting. After some arguing and a truce they were allowed to stay. I really wish Dia and Shady kicked them out, all Gallows did was try to stab me the whole time. It wasn't even fatal stabbings but still.

Shady tried to teach me to defend myself and ended up kicking me around the yard. Dia got involved a few days later and it was cool. She's really smart and learns a lot better than I do. Shady handled us like a pro teacher. If we didn't get something she adapted to our ways and figured out a better method. She's kinda aggressive but she isn't forward about what she can do. Taking on Dia and me showed me really what she can do and gave me some perspective there.

Dia was a great hostess, too. She's so nice and strong not to mention handles Gallows like a boss. He wouldn't leave anyone alone and caused a lot of chaos. Especially when Dia and me went out grocery shopping and Ferus crashed the party at the house. Kudos to Graves, I think I see why Gallows isn't dead yet.

After we cleaned up we went out and Gallows decided to start up chaos again. He set Dia's town on fire and killed a lot of people, even the chief of police! It was insane, I don't know what he was thinking. He even tried to kill us. Shady held him off and told Dia and me to get out of there. When all that was over with the two girls got into a heated argument. I've never seen Shady so cruel. Dia was the opposite, angry but still the opposite.

They made up that night but it really freaked me out, lol.

We hung out with Dia for a while after they left and helped clean. Her parents coming over was awkward to say the least. Did some training, talking, and then Shady and I left to get to the mansion for Christmas. It made me laugh seeing Shady ask for help with getting DeMii and Lullaby a present. Dia and I laughed, we got punched in the arms for it but it was worth it.

We had a serious talk which you can read all about on Shady's blog. The drive was a bit intense but gave me some insight.

We got back here and Brood interrogated me a lot. Shady told him to "fuck off" and would drag me away to train. He hasn't lightened up at all. I haven't been allowed to use the internet which is why it's taken a while to update this blog. I was kinda under watch and they didn't want Mister Creevey finding me or anything.

Shady has been tense lately from her old friend. They met on Sunday and Advocate intervened. He's been calling her a lot and somehow gets into the mansion. Shady explained to me how the wards work. If someone wants to do harm they simple can't enter the wards. I guess that means Advocate doesn't want to harm Shady, yeah? I think it's really cute. He's a scary guy but I don't see the harm in a little love, lol.

Some other stuff happened Sunday night too. The whole building woke up to her screaming. I barely saw anything because they took her to the medical room. There was a trail of blood, that Liam guy said she reopened the wound and won't stop thrashing. All she kept saying was "I remember everything!" and cried. I don't think she was even awake. Brood stopped Joshua from going into the room and got punched for it. The soldiers pulled him away but Joshua argued about his medical degree or something. They let him in to assist after that.

Joshua came out a few hours later and just sat down, I've never seen so much blood. He just held his head and rocked himself now and then. I went and checked up on him and he said they had to sedate her so much, it wasn't humanly possible. She kept crashing on the table and was in unstable condition. I could see hand prints on the forearm of his shirt, he caught me looking and said "She fought the sedatives and grabbed me, she just kept apologizing and crying. Brood demanded more sedatives and they finally got her knocked out but she wouldn't stop bleeding." he donated blood a lot and has been doing so since then.

I checked on her and she was awake but out of it. She looked at me for a few seconds before sighing and looking up again. Joshua has been at her side a lot. They are keeping her strapped down despite her slipping the cuffs somehow again and again. Brood has been keeping her sedated, Shady fights it and I can hear her swearing. She keeps trying to get up or at least read and do work. They moved her out of the medical room and into her bed in the cellar, she's been asleep a lot or just reads.

Brood was pissed because she posted on Tuesday, lol. I laughed so hard. Who else would wake up after that sort of thing and just write?

I've gone down to visit her a few times while she's awake. There's something off about her now. The way she looks at people isn't the same and she's barely acknowledging anyone. I guess she's got a lot of thinking to do with her memories being all back.

Joshua has been pacing around and Brood keeps trying to talk to him. Shady and him are a lot alike, Joshua just glares and tells him to "fuck off" just the same. I ran out and got some clothes for him to change into since his only pair is bloody. I think he's upset no one is letting him leave yet.

Been practicing what Shady has taught me. Joshua watches a lot and has started giving me pointers from afar. He's really nice, just really angry. There has been a lot of chaos going on but I'm hoping it stops for a bit while Shady is out of commission. After seeing Mister Creevey's message I guess I can only really hope. Brood let me back on the internet after that went up because he saw no point when he already knows where I am and stuff. =\

Hope you guys are good.